you have been living in a dream world, n30

we stayed up too late last night. i am not sure that i was asleep before 4. i was still up at 645. it was elder ring, sourdough pizza, listening to isobel and elliott drunk hysterical argue over skype and chocolate cherry muffins. i hate that audun drives home so late. i know he is … Read moreyou have been living in a dream world, n30

strings and attractors

“First be really honest with yourself: what have you allowed in your life that you never wanted in the first place.” I had this reoccurring knack. I would notice something that I did not like, I would either speak up and say, “no, this is not cool” and it would continue with no consequence or … Read morestrings and attractors

photographs that i’m erasing

The conversation continued in two separate paths: one commending me on my hard work in therapy & the other one attempting to explain why it is important to continue even though I want to quit. It hurts – this ugly look at my past behaviourisms knowing so much destruction has fallen at my feet because … Read morephotographs that i’m erasing

so, temp and I were talking about soulmates (pt. 1)

“It also shows that you may notice that he doesn’t exactly tick off all the boxes on your list of traits that your ideal partner should have but you won’t feel like it’s a big deal because these will be minor things!” What is in these boxes? ☐ loyalty ☐ honesty. Not the garden variety, … Read moreso, temp and I were talking about soulmates (pt. 1)

valentines day 7777: I know what I want (wants me)

Love and all its components follow me everywhere. When I ask for a sign, I get nothing. When I throw my hands up in the air and say, FUCK IT, I get truckfuls of that shit dumped on my head. I knew what I was getting myself involved with. I ignored the words because they … Read morevalentines day 7777: I know what I want (wants me)

valentines day 6666: sweets for my sweets

today I made things slightly simple for myself – no heartfelt playlists or donations to small furry beings… I gave out some candy to people & smiles were had. That was it. I never thought that I would say this but… I miss being around people. hugs and that sort of thing. I did not … Read morevalentines day 6666: sweets for my sweets