you have been living in a dream world, n30

we stayed up too late last night. i am not sure that i was asleep before 4. i was still up at 645. it was elder ring, sourdough pizza, listening to isobel and elliott drunk hysterical argue over skype and chocolate cherry muffins. i hate that audun drives home so late. i know he is … Read moreyou have been living in a dream world, n30

It’s complicated — but it doesn’t have to be.

-Isabel invited me to do this with her. -I have started vipassana to replace my other forms of meditation for a while. I shall update in a week or so. -Everyone at work has been sick so even though I am not really supposed to be there, I have been. Bittersweet is not just for … Read moreIt’s complicated — but it doesn’t have to be.

Lilith is in Gemini, though.

It may seem at times like I do things at such a chaotic speed or in such a dysfunctional way that there is nothing but erroneousness oozing out of my pores. I assure you, this is not the case. I am (mostly) cerebral in my thought process though by the time it is visible to … Read moreLilith is in Gemini, though.

night divides the day

Mulder to Scully after Melissa died. fate: a power beyond human control that is believed to determine what happens: destiny destiny: a predetermined course of events often held to be an irresistible power or agency People generally belong to one of two camps: 1.) why bother to do anything, life is happening to me I … Read morenight divides the day

Pomegranate bomb

Every memory that you store is based on your perception of what actually happened – rarely what really happened. What are you holding on to that is giving you grief, pain or trauma? Can you edit it out in a way that it could give you joy or at the best indifference? Maybe you just … Read morePomegranate bomb

Earth signs (non mèsi)

Earth signs are no joke. Every time I have been involved with one there is an immediate issue. Ownership problems, self-righteousness or plain argumentativeness that is just over-the-top.   I was getting bitched at for mentioning that my Snapchat was getting annoying (I got like ten people messaging me at once) and when I had … Read moreEarth signs (non mèsi)