At doom’s gate
tl;dr: Eirik might have done me dirty, but I think I started it. Friends should support you, not bully you into submission. Lies are unnecessary when you trust yourself first…
hatred is love that has been hurt badly
Have you ever had a moment in your life where everything freezes? Like, you are in the middle of doing something and everything just stops and you are watching it…
nth hoop
I remember back in the LiveJournal days, I was in a community for abuse survivors. I never posted my own story, I just commented on those that did. I was…
one fine day
Phew. I had not expected the response that I have received from my last post. And who knew you could gaslight yourself? I have been sitting here thinking about how…
rhinestone eyes
I started a conversation in two parts with two different people over the past 24 hours. My brain hurts because I have not had a chance to come to a…
“status”: “{not} ok”
While viewing my error logs I found these: [21-Jul-2021 18:54:13 UTC] WordPress database error Illegal mix of collations (utf8_general_ci,IMPLICIT) and (utf8mb4_unicode_520_ci,COERCIBLE) for operation ‘like’ for query SELECT SQL_CALC_FOUND_ROWS wpqy_posts.ID FROM…
New like!
Ritalin was okay on the lowest dose but as soon as we cranked it up the anxiety was insane. I was pacing the floors and waiting for someone to knock…
last flowers
you know as a child when you are unwanted. even when you have a roof over your head and shoes on your feet, you know that you were never meant…
sensory overload
Having someone say that they would not go away and then have them leave hurts. (Why did I think this? Not sure but I was not wrong)
dolour (us)
I realised that this was mine to cope with. You could weave your life into whatever you wanted without any of this weighting you down because it did not happen…