I am writing this post on the 19th, the day before I am due to leave for my trip. I know the days are going to be hectic and I want to make sure this post is made properly. Today is five years since Will’s left us. The weekend before I left, I was properly … Read moreFive Years
tl;dr: Eirik might have done me dirty, but I think I started it. Friends should support you, not bully you into submission. Lies are unnecessary when you trust yourself first and foremost.* When Will died, most of my friends left my side. They did not know how to handle my silence. No one in … Read moreAt doom’s gate
Every memory that you store is based on your perception of what actually happened – rarely what really happened. What are you holding on to that is giving you grief, pain or trauma? Can you edit it out in a way that it could give you joy or at the best indifference? Maybe you just … Read morePomegranate bomb
Will has been gone for 4 years today. He has been out of my life now for longer than he was in it. We were happy, for awhile. See… I have proof. If I am honest, I do not remember much of those days. They are buried under the pain that came after. I look … Read morethe song that never ends
While deleting my “old story” I found this in my blog’s rubbish bin: stop holding on to anger I have been so annoyed at so many people. People that have exploited my kindness. People that stopped texting back. People that did not like my photograph but liked my friend’s EXACT photograph that we posted … Read more01.January.2019
This is for the hopeless romantics. Those living in a world that wants nothing more than superficial love and meaningless hookups. This is for the hearts that crave more than to be just wanted and desired, that crave the need for safety, familiarity and warmth. This is for those without fickle hearts who do not … Read moreScreaming while the exit signs read heaven’s waiting
Today is three years since Will died. Before he died, he was trying to make amends for the damage he did to me & to our relationship. He was sending me emails with letters & artwork every night with different affirmations. He planned on doing 460 days of them (the tally of how many days … Read more17 of 460