a/s/l

You are allowed to make mistakes in love. You are allowed to screw up from time to time. No one is perfect and feelings are complicated. Love can compel you to do crazy things, to make bad decisions, to miss people who you should be happy to live without.

the universe has brought someone back on to my path that I really did not expect. I am apprehensive because they have the ability to slay me but excited because OH THE THINGS I CAN LEARN FROM THEM

we all have idols they should burn but hey

the 90s be weird.

Duplication

Horror, horror. Electric bits of selves hijacked by the jilted, mirror-shards in which the illusion of control, compression, composure, possession can be maintained [if only at a hollow dissatisfied flicker].

Nauseous shadow-spew. A host of bad, real dreams, writhing and writhing, hungry ghosts unrequited, unrequitable.

Say we will awaken one day soon unswallowed! Say all will be agleam once more!

the uncrossing, pt. 4

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mid﹂﹁

my sentences are collapsing.
reality is a stinging & unpleasant thing.
I​ am scattered.
no-one talks to each other anymore. everyone has their noses in their mobiles.
trust grows where doubt has always lived.

IT IS STILL FRIGHTENING AS HELL, though.

nothing is the way you think it is.

incompatible forms of child[ishness] “romantic fairytale bullshit” vs. lack of trust, hope, faith, & courageous resolve
You say “to may to,” I say [, backwards,] “to mah to.”
And the logical conclusion.
Because I cannot be the only one here believing in these things anymore.​