you have been living in a dream world, n30

we stayed up too late last night. i am not sure that i was asleep before 4. i was still up at 645. it was elder ring, sourdough pizza, listening to isobel and elliott drunk hysterical argue over skype and chocolate cherry muffins. i hate that audun drives home so late. i know he is … Read moreyou have been living in a dream world, n30

there is no placebo

I had to let you go.But it did not happen in one morning, out of the blue.It certainly did not happen altogether in just one day.It took me thousands of days and millions of goodbyes.Each time, a constant, tiring battle raged on, between my sensitive heart and my rational mind, between a delusional fantasy and … Read morethere is no placebo

maybe we’re having too much fun

How would you change things if you could go back three months on the timeline you are on now? You know how things are right this very instant. Do you like how they are? QUICK right down the winning lottery numbers or take note of what your friend is wearing and buy the same outfit … Read moremaybe we’re having too much fun

eye to eye we need no words at all

I was talking to Isobel tonight about how I got myself into this position and she found herself nodding a lot during my explanations. Having the mastery of your circumstances is all well & good but where to go with that information, well — that is something else. I am glad she is more like … Read moreeye to eye we need no words at all

The huntsman

“We are all ordinary. We are all boring. We are all spectacular. We are all shy. We are all bold. We are all heroes. We are all helpless. It just depends on the day.”- Brad Meltzer It feels counterintuitive, but please know that everyone thinks they find a soulmate multiple times before they really do. Everyone … Read moreThe huntsman

Robert Smith married himself as a woman *dies*

Emotional abandonment really messes you up because it is basically friend-ghosting; you have this connection with someone and then they just leave you and you do not know why, and you have shared memories with them. It messes you up because you cannot understand it, and you then go over every little conversation you ever … Read moreRobert Smith married himself as a woman *dies*