I had a conversation in group today about your theory on how younger people are better at communicating within relationships. I got laughed at by the people in the group and the health professionals. It is well known, they stated, that younger millennials and older gen z have a more transient experience when I comes … Read morethat was weird
and then I realised that the problem is that I am not really positive that I am equipped to make a decision. 1. do you love him? yes. 2. do you trust him? I could not say yes to the first question without saying yes to this one. 3. are you attached to him? not … Read morevalentines day 13:13:13:13: the idea of you
I thought it would be an injustice if I did not make a post about Audun – I have hinted about him over the past few months but just in case he makes his way here, I did not want him to think that he was not a valuable player on my crazy team. What … Read morevalentines day 2222: quantum disco
All of this energy is being put into being neutral instead of just releasing the breath and saying, “I would like to be this or that to you”. He is going to lose me and he has to know that. Is someone encouraging him to stay away or single or Switzerland? I am tempted to … Read moreMornings are for coffee and contemplation
Yeah, okay. I see what I did there. I stopped it before it went too far. I deleted the damn app and shook my head, crossed myself and said a Hail Mary. I want what I want and I will have to sort my shit out, I know. I KNOW. fuck. (I am not laughing, … Read more(one two three) repeater
But then, there was you. And you were brand new. A light in all my corners. A piece of acceptance, hope, and love I did not know I would ever have but now cannot imagine accepting otherwise. A list of criteria is no longer relevant, because we are expansive. I have written so much about … Read moreThe game of horror we call love
I was talking to Isobel tonight about how I got myself into this position and she found herself nodding a lot during my explanations. Having the mastery of your circumstances is all well & good but where to go with that information, well — that is something else. I am glad she is more like … Read moreeye to eye we need no words at all
It is far easier to believe that you do not find me interesting than to try to convince myself that you do. I have spent a lifetime looking in the mirror and wondering, “Why?” Now you are standing here, right in front of me, And all I want to do is ask you the same. … Read moreThe eye in confidence
And so we come full circle. When I started dating with some seriousness, I met this guy – we shall call him Chris. He had some of the attributes I was looking for & we got along really well. Alas, he gave me super bad vibes – he was hiding something and it bothered me. … Read morechaser-chasee
There was one night that I felt so utterly helpless. I knew he was suffering and he refused to let me close. It was frustrating because I knew I could be of some assistance. He did not understand that we were put on each other’s paths for this very purpose. The harder he pushed me … Read moreLike a prayer