How do you navigate social cues? I do not understand how to “get” people in the slightest. I mean, Isabel I can nearly taste how she feels sometimes. She clearly expresses herself. She tries to hide but she projects her expressions very well. There are a few people that I know like this. Not as … Read moreAnd a compass wouldn’t help at all
-Isabel invited me to do this with her. -I have started vipassana to replace my other forms of meditation for a while. I shall update in a week or so. -Everyone at work has been sick so even though I am not really supposed to be there, I have been. Bittersweet is not just for … Read moreIt’s complicated — but it doesn’t have to be.
As I move forward with Healing Developmental Trauma, I hit feelings in places I did not know feels could be hit. And then I realise how I am passing the torch. “professional insight into a predictable set of trauma symptoms and deeply ingrained behaviours that result when a child does not get the core developmental … Read more13:23
“First be really honest with yourself: what have you allowed in your life that you never wanted in the first place.” I had this reoccurring knack. I would notice something that I did not like, I would either speak up and say, “no, this is not cool” and it would continue with no consequence or … Read morestrings and attractors
There is a song called, “Engine Driver“, by The Decemberist. It is probably one of the saddest songs I have ever heard. I do not know why it hits me the way it does, me the eternal goth girl that has listened to hundreds of thousands of hours of The Cure and Joy Division (and … Read morethe art of being unbothered
I remember back in the LiveJournal days, I was in a community for abuse survivors. I never posted my own story, I just commented on those that did. I was never brave enough. I did notice something: Over the years, the women that I have kept up with (I am friends with several of them … Read morenth hoop
In relationship therapy, I took a test that scored me very low in the arena of commitment. Seemingly, I do not have the traits of someone that sees the point or commits well or easily. I wrote down how my previously relationships/situationships unfolded. How the courting phases worked. How long it took for us to … Read moreleft/swipe
Phew. I had not expected the response that I have received from my last post. And who knew you could gaslight yourself? I have been sitting here thinking about how to answer the questions posed to me and I am unsure how. In that link above, they say there is a difference between gaslighting yourself … Read moreone fine day
I started a conversation in two parts with two different people over the past 24 hours. My brain hurts because I have not had a chance to come to a conclusion in either one of them. I mean, I rarely come to a full stop in any chat but this one is plaguing my thoughts. … Read morerhinestone eyes
It may seem at times like I do things at such a chaotic speed or in such a dysfunctional way that there is nothing but erroneousness oozing out of my pores. I assure you, this is not the case. I am (mostly) cerebral in my thought process though by the time it is visible to … Read moreLilith is in Gemini, though.