Interesting twenty-four hours!
I have been given a different perspective, completely. I will spend some time meditating on the complexity of this new viewpoint – my mind has been blown.
Grief, for example, is often a major cause for a black aura.
Taking all of what I know (now) into account, I shall proceed with much more kindness and light.
It symbolizes your unforgiving nature. It means you are holding on to bad feelings far longer than you should.
I noticed something was “off” but we are all weird in our own way. The more bizarre someone is, the more I tend to like them… but not in this case. I was repelled.
This can also be because of a fight that’s ongoing and still unresolved. This can be because of your fears that your partner is not being completely honest with you.
This was a battle before I came into the picture. Unfortunately, I did not know all of the details before I got involved.
It will turn black whenever you feel like you’re never going to find the love that you deserve. It will remain black as long as you keep the fear of losing and failing alive in your heart.
A black aura is not a negative color when it comes to love. It’s a good sign because it will bring your attention to the issues in your love life that you have failed to address.
All of this time, there has been an evil person and an abused. After last night’s girl gab session, I see now that I have been SO WRONG.
It is a person trying to hold on to something that they are afraid to lose because being alone seems worse than moving on and finding a better life that could bring true happiness. If they had any real friends, they would have told them this.
You should not have to manipulate someone into submission. You deserve so much more. You deserve someone that thinks the sun rises and sets on your face. You should wake every day knowing that your heart is full and cared for or at the very least – that you do not share your life with someone that is dreaming of someone else.
You are worthy of loyalty.
Even if you are the only one giving it to yourself.
I have never fucked up a situation like this in my whole life. I thought I knew what I was fighting for/against. I have talked about it in therapy, I have cried a sea of tears about it. I have dozens of journal posts pouring my heart out about it. I looked at it at every single angle
or so I thought.
I was incorrect.
I will need to forgive myself. I did not know, I meant no harm – but the harm was dealt anyway. What was thrown back at me was x1000 worse than what I did, HOWEVER, I get it now.
I see you.
I should have been paying more attention, but I trust everyone – even those that hate me. I figure if there is enough water under the bridge – YOU WILL GO YOUR WAY, I WILL GO MINE.
Nope, not in this case. I was not allowed to live my life without being watched. So I had to show that I was paying attention as well.
I did not want to any longer. I tapped out. There is no joy in it for me. It is spying on unhappiness. I would rather focus on improving my space.
I do truly wish you peace. 🌟
I am thankful for the universe’s uncanny ability to give me the guidance I need to help me understand my path. I ask and I receive. ✨
Now to make my intentions clear so this never happens again… (easier said than done!)